Looking in the mirror
trying to see a change in my face.
These dark thoughts are a trap
and I’m sitting here wrapped,
enveloped in them.
Thoughts of isolation
I cannot entertain.
I wonder if you can see
any of the pain.
if I had a journalistic mind
then I could see a why
or dig deep till
the hard to swallow pill of reality
falls from the sky.
it’s in these thought traps
that I could spiral
till the dark craves a spark,
a light to rival.
Positivity is a means of survival.
It sneaks in when the sun is low
and thoughts are too
till everything glows
and I’m made new.
I crave the light
like I’m drowning under water.
my next breath a hug,
an embrace I didn’t know I needed.
Though this face didn’t betray the cry,
my heart must have pleaded.
Looking in the mirror
and I catch a light
that’d be useful in navigating
these thoughts in the night.
Soooooo I have some news *drumroll please*
I received my invitation from the placement office! I am headed to Indonesia!!!!!
I literally screamed when I read the letter then cried for a long time. I’ll be leaving in a couple of months!
I was given over 200 pages total in packets to read via email. I will be receiving even more info in the mail in 5 days. I am beyond ecstatic!
I don’t even know what to do with myself at this point. It is really Happening! I’m in!
I’ll post soon with a more detailed update.
Until then, Keep smiling (:
You don’t need a lot to go anywhere. All I took was a toothbrush.
My sisters and I traveled 998 miles over the past two days. Up and down the East Coast. We drove down to North Carolina from Maryland, then all the way up to New Jersey. I bought a MONKEY MUG.
Sleeping in the car and driving ANYWHERE was the most exciting thing I’ve done in a while. We took the back roads through Pennsylvania, Delaware, and North Carolina. It was a wonderful experience. We drove for hours, stopping anywhere that was interesting and Sang with the windows down. We listened to EVERYTHING.
I know this sounds cliche, but the wind blowing through your hair is liberating. the winding roads. the sun. the rain. laughter.
It was an adventure. I would suggest a random Road trip to anyone (: