When I think of you and I cannot call,
a mournfulness envelopes me,
but I don’t feel small.
It’s because of you that I do not hide.
Safe in this space; in shining armor,
you’re our knight.
when life pushed, you pushed back harder.
We remember you: the light & the darker
You deserve all love & honor.
Happy Memorial Day!
Beholden to my Mother.
I’d say that’s true.
For loving me so much she’d rinse my crying eyes of shampoo.
Beholden to my Father.
For there’s no doubt
that he opened the door for all the laughter the world would allow.
Beholden to my sisters.
There’s no room to question
that they’d cross the universe with me at the slightest suggestion.
Beholden to my brother.
For that is certain.
His smile fills the room like the sun when you draw back the curtains.
Beholden to my Grandmother,
I’ll always believe
her spirits larger than anything I could conceive.
Beholden to my heart
with no hesitation
Their love fills it with a joy beyond explanation.
I envy folks who can erase their history and create a new definition of who they are; that is absolutely brave. I have this need to learn everything there is about me: the mundane, the things worthy of pride & shame and the parts of my story that were ripped from me.Whether it is fortunate or not, every single part of me, past and present, is who I am.
The key to carrying my past (my stories & the stories of my ancestors) is perspective. I can choose to let my history drag me down or I can say “I am Imani : daughter, sister, cousin, friend & grandchild. I am one part of a long story that is always expanding, and though it is not perfect, all of it is mine”. I cannot separate myself from this story because I don’t want to lose that feeling of representing something greater than myself. And I agree that it is no one’s job to represent anything, but I volunteer.
So, when I step forward (or backwards), I’m stepping with great-great Mary A. Johnson, My Mom, My Grandma’s, my dear Aunts and Uncles, and everyone who has brought me here.
And, here we are.
You don’t need a lot to go anywhere. All I took was a toothbrush.
My sisters and I traveled 998 miles over the past two days. Up and down the East Coast. We drove down to North Carolina from Maryland, then all the way up to New Jersey. I bought a MONKEY MUG.
Sleeping in the car and driving ANYWHERE was the most exciting thing I’ve done in a while. We took the back roads through Pennsylvania, Delaware, and North Carolina. It was a wonderful experience. We drove for hours, stopping anywhere that was interesting and Sang with the windows down. We listened to EVERYTHING.
I know this sounds cliche, but the wind blowing through your hair is liberating. the winding roads. the sun. the rain. laughter.
It was an adventure. I would suggest a random Road trip to anyone (: